Fire

آری، آری ، زندگی زیباست زندگی آتشگهی دیرنده پا برجاست گر بیفروزیش، رقص شعله اش در هر کران پیداست ورنه، خاموش است وخاموشی گناه ماست سیاوش کسرایی / / / / / Life is like fire, can burns forever. If we turn it on we can see flame dances from far away, other wise its dark and thats our fault.

around 9:30 i was done with my shaving and i thought i still have time to go for swimming, i was there till the closing time, and actually after that. so it was around 11, that i thought i have two option going to gym or go home, and i decided to go to gym till 12. I thought I want to come home after him.
around 12 when i was going home, I was imaging about what I'll be facing to. my suggestion was:
1- seeing him seating on the coach and working with his laptop, and kind of waiting for me but not saying any comment when I come in and just give me an angry look.
2- a fun one would be, tony and amin also would be in our house, and they were all worry for me and wondering where i am.
3- another scary one but not a very possible would be he would have left couple of messages in the answering machine asking me to contact him ASAP, and telling me I'm looking every where for u....
but then when I come home i find him drunk lying on the floor, and there was Tony's message at 10:30 that Sh is sleepy and he is sleeping over here, and if he wakes up we will bring him home.....

A- To day i was so angry and bitter one of those days that " ba ye man asal ham nemitooni bokhorish"
and if you believe that your anger can make a negative physical effect, then I could totally see it.
I had a feeling that if i be this bitter i would screw up some thing, or at least i'll forget some thing.
During the He fill, i saw the gauge number increased, i was trying to make it on the maximum level, but it even went higher, which wasn't a proper thing. then after 2 mins when i measured the gauge in different way, it shows me it half way full, which was very strange, i put it back to the original situation and again it was half way full. it makes me feel like i was dreaming it or maybe i had a dejavu. it never happened before and I couldn't explain it.
even at the evening i wanted to do a routine experiment, (with different machine) and i've heard a funny noise and I noticed another instrument was burned out. I just hope that tomorrow morning i find this as another dejavu.
two incident in one day, when even one is way too much


one of the best thing in the world is that you can find a good firend that you can talk too
specially when you are so angry, you can talk to her/him and your firend doesn't say any thing and just listen to you and then you suddenly feel relieve, you feel you are not angry any more, and that is just a miracle.
you know the best part is you are talking to your firend and she remind you of some thing you said 5-6 years ago about some event and you don't even remember, and she says " you know what you said that time that day, made me realize that....."

ameh jan, oomadan khoonamoon mehmooni, hala begzarim az inke behem zang zadeh ke addresset ro bede, va vaghti man migam khoob key tashrif miarin mige alan rah mioftim!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
va man dar hale shakh dar ovordan boodam ke khoob baba ye rooz jolo tar zang mizadi! (hala khoobe man khabar dashtam ke daran miana!)

bad ke rafteh boodan, mooshi migoft ke rooy sohbateshoon fagaht ba to bood, raje be khoone fagaht be to tabrik goftano tashakor kardano ina...

my aunt called from some one's house and she said we are in T.O and i was like oh, and she said we gone come to visit you, i was happy and ask so when are you coming, and she told me we are leaving now, just give me the address.

I was so shocked, i was like what?! i was lucky that she was some where in downtown and it took her around half an hour to get to my place. imagine i was sleeping when i picked up the phone! thankfully both of us cleaned up the house and set up the table and it looked good.
Then i thought, when some one called like that, i should have say i'm not home give me at 30 mins and then come, so that they would know that they can't just do that. and then mooshi said, when some one called your home number you can't say you are not at home!!!! :D

any ways when they left, I asked mooshi what do you think about them and he said, when they were talking about the house, they were just talking to you and when they were thanking for the hospitality they were just talking to you.
p.s ( as usual i didn't pay attention to that and didn't see it.) but the gift they brought was a shirt for me, which i thought it was rude, for a new house you bring a shirt for one person....

I was talking to my mom, and I asked her if they said any thing about the house ( see i really like people talk good things about me, and say she has a nice place)
and mom said, no, she just said that "we went to her house and mooshi was there too" and my mom was thinking (yeah he is there) and thats where i find out that, oh, they didn't knew we are leaving together, and even didn't think about this!!!!!


the funny part was they were asking me twice in different occasion weather the house has 2 bedroom or one, seems like they were thinking so mooshi doesn't even have a room when he come here?!!!!!!